I was there.

And you were there,
standing on my doorstep,
frustrated and in tears,
I was the only one to care,
I was there.

I gave you my all,
Sorted out your issues,
done what you liked,
caught you from your fall,
I was there.

I took your crap,
You took it all out on me,
yet i stayed,
felt like i was in a mousetrap,
I was there.

You lied,
but I kept quiet,
and went along with your dreams,
held you when you cried,
I was there.

You took it all from me,
filch every last smile,
shoved away everyone who cares,
your stole my key,
I was there.

You’ve pushed me one step too far,
I am a human being,
it matters what I care,
So I’m heading for my car,
I’m not there.

I’m not a cow,
but you’ve stepped across the line,
and I can’t take it anymore,
Go on – take your bow,
I’ll never be there.

My Little Man

I have THEE cutest, and most GORGEOUS little nephew in the WHOLE world.
He's had his ups and downs, and has been so much - but he always triumps through ..My gorgeous little fighter!!

I have to add he's quite brainy too, even at 7 weeks old he can have a telephone conversation with his aunty Tee ;)

I Looove My Life!

Why do I always focus on negativity, and the things I'm quite frankly pants at! ..Because in all honesty - there are some things that I am pretty bloody good at!!

I have the most amazing friends,
I am on my way to becoming a great teacher,
I am a funny person - If not a little dizzy :P
I'm a lucky girl..and I should think that a little bit more.

..Because finally - things have all fallen into place, and you know what?! They are going my way :) I love it!!

Struggles.

So - I think it is good we can admit our errors, admit what we can't do, admit our struggles.

Lets face it; We all have them!! Whether something remotely small and tiny, or something massive and large which sticks out like a sore thumb. They are THERE. Now - it is up to one, if they are to ignore it - or to sort it.

I have to say from personal experience, I now follow the simple rules:
1. Admit
2. Defeat

which tends (and I hope) equals the equation;

Admit + Defeat = A very happy me!!

However, I know it is not always impossible to defeat completely yet we can defeat it from taking over our lives.

I haven't been in the best of health the last two weeks, My m.e. begins to play up this time of year - but this year I have no choice but to pick it, screw it, and bin it! (Or atleast send it into recycling ;))
It plays with me so much ..my mind, my strength and my soul. It makes me not feel like me, but it is always going to be there - I just have to choose whose going to be the boss. And this time - it is going to be ME.

So watch out - I'm coming out on top!

Intensity.

Okaii - So another rant, but I have to let it out somewhere right?

Life is so stressful and intense right now. My own issues to sort, and a whole bundle of other people's like a farmer drowned with crops to harvest, and seeds to sew.

Having come back to uni, going from my relaxed home situation where I'm not afraid to say what I think, I have people to support me and helps me do things - where I dictate my own life, time and belongings. Coming back to this intense situation where you have so many people to account for, and you don't necessarily tell everyone the whole story because you fear they won't take it. Hard work!

Juggling your own issues, with a whole bunch of others people's too. The drama in these girls life is ridiculous - I think I'm more of a man myself but then again possbily a whole new species. I wish guys could really know how much they can affect one person - and stop using my friends for crying out loud. Yes they may ..I say may offer you things on a plate - doesn't mean you have to take it. We are born to flirt.

Nevertheless, I have come to the point where I need to add priority and order to my list of things to deal with. Do I sort my own problems out first - in order to help other people without being so stressed? Or do I slap on a smile, and hide mine whilst I sort out theirs?

I guess it's trial and error.

Lets hope for an immensely positive post next time! On a good note - I had a genuinely good weekend; fingers crossed I got my job, and have also met my penpal at last!

I Love it!

It is the best.

Something I fought so hard to get - spent hours trying to find, but there it was; dropped into my lap. So - It's not the easiest job but I love challenges, it interests me and it is immensely awarding.

You are a fantastic little person - an admiration. You constantly smile, and fight through everything - your disabilities never stop you and you shine so bright, that we forget they're there too.

I wish everyone could see past everyone's difficulties - we all have difficulties and are all worthy. Just because some are not visible, doesn't mean we do not have them. There is so much to see behind everyone's closed door - take me for example, there is so much more to my story that you don't know.


You make me smile when I walk through the door - I am prepared to overcome my fears to help you, I'd come with the drop of a hat. Yes - you can be difficult, but you are SO determined which makes me determined to give you all I can possibly give - the BEST.

When people think you can't do things because of your limitations;
- brush your own teeth
- create your own collage
- help do the housework!!
I will help you - because we managed. We managed to do them ALL, Every last one. You don't give up. You are so strong-willed and what will make you go SO far, I want to be with you on that journey.

You help me help others - I read some blogs EVERYday for ideas I can use with you, but also to share ideas that we use together. We are a network. We are one.

Thankyou for sharing your lift with me.

Most people would rather be certain they're miserable, than risk being happy

Isn't it typical, when you ask someone how they are (The whole standard "conversation" thing). And either they are not happy - or you aren't!

Espeacially with me and Miss Stokesey - What a joke eh?

Well..We have decided to document this landmark in our life - The day that we are BOTH. Yes - You heard me right; BOTH happy :)

The best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up. ~Mark Twain