Thursday, 18 February 2010
The Homeland
It's like a constant roundabout, swinging round and round. No consistency. No frequency. You have some who are there for you, care about you - No matter what. Always on her priority list, that's my grandma. You have those, who don't want to know - never want to know; They try to buy you - yes it's nice, but slight hint - your time is more precious than anything you could EVER buy. Which leaves the inbetweeners - they just cant make up their minds;
You try your absolute hardest, do anything to please - but it doesn't work. One moment they want you, another you're chucked. Typical when it's the person you're closest to. I guess the saying goes "You take it out on the ones you love the most". Its all fine and dandy - but it makes you feel like crap. You want to punish them. You want to show them how it feels - a taste of their own medicine. You love them so much, that you can't. Yes - I look like a push over..but I care for you too much to be able to do that. I hate it. I do. I wish you could see how much I'm trying - don't want you to know the hurt you caused.
People. Can't live with them, Can't live without them.
You try your absolute hardest, do anything to please - but it doesn't work. One moment they want you, another you're chucked. Typical when it's the person you're closest to. I guess the saying goes "You take it out on the ones you love the most". Its all fine and dandy - but it makes you feel like crap. You want to punish them. You want to show them how it feels - a taste of their own medicine. You love them so much, that you can't. Yes - I look like a push over..but I care for you too much to be able to do that. I hate it. I do. I wish you could see how much I'm trying - don't want you to know the hurt you caused.
People. Can't live with them, Can't live without them.
Sunday, 14 February 2010
The horoscopes says...
Thursday 11th February 10; Today you may do something childish - a play in a park, a ride on a bike, then realise perhaps you shouldn't have done it afterwards.
The story begins...
Wednesday 10th February, its a sporties night - wednesday's are always sporties nights. To be particular, can't say it was one of my best nights out - mainly because I was barely intoxicated (yes - I hear you say..for once in your life). Now - I wouldn't say I'm a particularly outgoing individual, I probably have quite a sensible head really.
"Lets go swimming in the lake" ..Lake Windermere he's suggesting. "Go for it. I haven't used my wetsuit yet - When do you wanna go?" .."Tonight" He replies. My thinking he is joking, it is 2;30 in the morning! "Go for it. Lets go." ..."Go & Get your stuff then"
And the plan formulates..Off we go, all 4 of us + 1 (I think to make sure we don't drown) 3AM - We get to the lake, only two of us go in; Myself, a student teacher and then an outdoor studies dude. He takes two just two steps in - He should be used to it Whilst me - I am in above my knees. Tshh - Got to show the OS how its done eh?
An amazing night - One to remember. As for the horoscope - I'll let you decide :P
The story begins...
Wednesday 10th February, its a sporties night - wednesday's are always sporties nights. To be particular, can't say it was one of my best nights out - mainly because I was barely intoxicated (yes - I hear you say..for once in your life). Now - I wouldn't say I'm a particularly outgoing individual, I probably have quite a sensible head really.
"Lets go swimming in the lake" ..Lake Windermere he's suggesting. "Go for it. I haven't used my wetsuit yet - When do you wanna go?" .."Tonight" He replies. My thinking he is joking, it is 2;30 in the morning! "Go for it. Lets go." ..."Go & Get your stuff then"
And the plan formulates..Off we go, all 4 of us + 1 (I think to make sure we don't drown) 3AM - We get to the lake, only two of us go in; Myself, a student teacher and then an outdoor studies dude. He takes two just two steps in - He should be used to it Whilst me - I am in above my knees. Tshh - Got to show the OS how its done eh?
An amazing night - One to remember. As for the horoscope - I'll let you decide :P
The world so far..
is hectic hectic hectic.
Uni - an experience they say. That - it certainly bloody is!
Hospital trips, ambulances, falling outs, drunken nights out, but floods - well I am sure they don't feature too often?
Nightmare. You'd think it'd all go smoothly, they'd use their common sense but this university - well..they're in a whole new league. Don't get me wrong, they tried - and I guess that is what counts.
Just remember, there are ALWAYS positives in a negative situation and a positive situation this has turned out to be!
1. Stranded, no accomodation and on many occasions -> Meet some amazing people, and broaden my horizons and support systems.
2. Upsets -> You know who your real friends are, the ones you can always count on. ( I <3 yoou!!)
3. No choice situations, lumped with those you don't particularly get on with; You get to know people for who they really are, making great discoveries & friends in the making + gaining confidence in the process.
BUT the past is now the past, accommodation is ready, and WE'RE BACK. Wahoo! Don't get me wrong..there are still things to do like packing (ergh) but it is time to rest, chill and start over once again - here's to the future!
<3
Uni - an experience they say. That - it certainly bloody is!
Hospital trips, ambulances, falling outs, drunken nights out, but floods - well I am sure they don't feature too often?
Nightmare. You'd think it'd all go smoothly, they'd use their common sense but this university - well..they're in a whole new league. Don't get me wrong, they tried - and I guess that is what counts.
Just remember, there are ALWAYS positives in a negative situation and a positive situation this has turned out to be!
1. Stranded, no accomodation and on many occasions -> Meet some amazing people, and broaden my horizons and support systems.
2. Upsets -> You know who your real friends are, the ones you can always count on. ( I <3 yoou!!)
3. No choice situations, lumped with those you don't particularly get on with; You get to know people for who they really are, making great discoveries & friends in the making + gaining confidence in the process.
BUT the past is now the past, accommodation is ready, and WE'RE BACK. Wahoo! Don't get me wrong..there are still things to do like packing (ergh) but it is time to rest, chill and start over once again - here's to the future!
<3
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