The Homeland

It's like a constant roundabout, swinging round and round. No consistency. No frequency. You have some who are there for you, care about you - No matter what. Always on her priority list, that's my grandma. You have those, who don't want to know - never want to know; They try to buy you - yes it's nice, but slight hint - your time is more precious than anything you could EVER buy. Which leaves the inbetweeners - they just cant make up their minds;

You try your absolute hardest, do anything to please - but it doesn't work. One moment they want you, another you're chucked. Typical when it's the person you're closest to. I guess the saying goes "You take it out on the ones you love the most". Its all fine and dandy - but it makes you feel like crap. You want to punish them. You want to show them how it feels - a taste of their own medicine. You love them so much, that you can't. Yes - I look like a push over..but I care for you too much to be able to do that. I hate it. I do. I wish you could see how much I'm trying - don't want you to know the hurt you caused.

People. Can't live with them, Can't live without them.